HOME, MADE;
A POET’S PILGRIMAGE THROUGH THE SOUTH DOWNS WAY
Home, Made; A Poet’s Pilgrimage through the South Downs Way is a poetry cycle funded by the National Trust & Writing our Legacy for Changing Chalk.
Traversing both a physical & psycho-spiritual landscape, six locations in the South Downs become six psychological landmarks of blossoming spiritual growth and personal rebirth.
The cycle paves a journey from separation to belonging, force to flow, ego to soul—ultimately, encouraging readers to see nature as both an internal and external force, and to feel the power of nature to heal, inspire, and create meaning.
Home, Made; A Poet’s Pilgrimage Through The South Downs Way
The Valley (Mother)
The River (Ego)
The Cliff (Separation)
The Forest (Death)
The Hill (Spirit)
The Well (Rebirth)
The Valley (Mother)
the day I arrive
is overcast and dry,
late July.
I carry my roots in a plant pot.
tender, tendrils frayed;
unearthed from a ground
that could not nurture me.
I hold them close,
in search of a place to call home.
and so begins my pilgrimage
through the South Downs Way.
first stop, Devil’s Dyke;
The Valley.
its mouth open wide,
I enter the middle path
straight into its depths.
here,
a strange safety arises.
inside your tall green walls,
I am held.
like a small seed,
I have resolve
to fill the space,
grow into something great.
the ground beneath me speaks:
follow the path,
home is made
where love can grow.
feeling you by my side, now,
I pick up the pace.
soon enough,
I pass the first threshold: a gate opened,
a path up.
trees shelter me as I race up the steps,
no pause for breath.
and then—a clearing in the sky,
clouds dissolve into bursts of blue;
a magnificent landscape of valleys and hills
ebbs and flows into view.
on top of the world, and yet,
an insignificant speck
from your perspective.
but still, I am held
like one of your own,
hands and feet intertwined
in soft grass,
so I set down the plant pot,
reach for my roots,
and I make home.
(at Devil’s Dyke, Brighton;
The South Downs)
The River (Ego)
(at The River Itchen, Winchester;
The South Downs)
on this rainy riverbed in Winchester,
I will not rest.
I resent the slow, muddy bog of Wintertime,
stretched into darkness,
cold, still, stagnant…
whilst inside me,
life spills, eager to emerge.
just like The River Itchen
I am close to burst; desperate to surge
forward into unchartered waters,
make my mark on the world.
so many seasons passed
since I was a small seed.
home-grown comfort nourishes me,
sweet fruit has arrived, ripe;
but now languishes in my hands—
I demand more.
the hunger gnaws at me
and I don’t want to wait,
not for another cycle to spin fate—
I want to rule the wheel of life,
straddle it like an old mill over water,
direct the cascading flow where I want to go.
or else, release me completely—
dive into this wild current,
free of any restraint.
on this misty morning in February,
I am impatient.
I will not rest;
not until I see the sun begin to rise,
and with it, inching over the horizon,
this new life,
now to be mine.
The Cliff (Separation)
no matter how hard I try,
I cannot reach you.
at Seven Sisters, cruel winds
are insistent; they ring in my ears,
whispering fear
of failure,
you’ll never make it.
I was brazen. believing
I could overcome you;
but now no forgiving sea
will catch my leap of faith.
because I have tried so hard to go against you,
like an abrupt force, like a gale;
but now I know
I can only move as fast
as the grass on your ground.
but petulant, I stamped out the seeds;
let a garden grow rife with weeds—
now, gentle blooms disintegrate
like grains of sand
into stone, cold
and bare
as bone.
no warmth reaches me on this day;
I am alone.
except for the chalk
of The Cliff,
a canvas of white in immense,
illuminating light—
here I will find the strength
for redemption.
a new page
I will begin to write.
(at Seven Sisters;
The South Downs)
The Forest (Death)
I have been felled,
cut from the root;
yet the forest floor holds me
still.
and the soil is soft,
a sweet whisper to slumber.
I rest here.
above, a cool canopy of trees;
light cannot reach me.
I am at home in the dark.
so, I retreat,
return to source;
curl into myself,
then unfurl without force.
spiral deeper
into the heart of the earth,
and there,
light a hearth,
let the warmth in again.
in the mulch,
I am free.
the earth lets me be.
amidst the simplicity of the soil
and its merciful embrace,
I am redeemed.
(at Friston Forest;
The South Downs)
The Hill (Spirit)
I am learning
with the deepest roots
come the greatest heights;
and with a humble knowledge
of darkness, I can create
the most brilliant light.
I am learning
that to scale The Hill
I need to preserve my peace;
keep the reserves
close to me;
resist the urge to rush, and trust
that when the earth blooms,
so will I, too.
it has been years since I first met you.
I have grown from seed, to fruit,
to rot,
to compost,
and now I am ready to grow again,
meet you at your level.
knowing I can only be as great as you
is the most humbling and inspiring truth.
and so,
when I walk up The Hill that afternoon,
the sky will sing bold and blue,
two magpies dance free in the air—
I will walk up The Hill;
and I will meet you there.
(at Southwick Hill;
The South Downs)
The Well (Rebirth)
I come to you in quiet
with the gentle strength
of a woman reborn.
no fanfare, just a sea breeze; only the
marsh marigolds, bright and innocent,
accompany me.
here, I land.
slow and steady,
from bud to bloom,
your solid ground has restored me to health;
and I have learned to be a reliable steward of the land,
and the path that I walk.
years ago, you told me
home is made where love can grow
and I tread ground
with half-formed hagstones,
broken skin, broken heart;
but through the cracks
I now let in the light,
let in the love.
so when I arrive at The Holy Well,
I offer myself.
let me be
the open vessel,
let you be
the source.
(at The Holy Well; Eastbourne,
The South Downs)